Exhale
Just for sohail- uploaded at 1am 5th Nov '06 :)
I have come to see the light
A much brighter future creeps into sight
My lessons have been learnt
Though harshly and through toil
But I know that to be burnt
Is the only way, to keep away
From flames that twist and coil
A higher level of maturity
Is what was missing from this history
I now know to stay away
From those who wish to remain
In their pain and lie their days away
Things I take personally
Were not meant that way, I see
Prejudice will only instil in you shallow gain
Friends that I thought were mine
When all we did was swim in wine
Common ground I did not find
They tried to sway me into highs
Patience please, the time will come
When I will find my special one
Until then I will learn to stay
In my own skin, some comfort will give way
My choice is now simple and true
Bring history into present; let it linger through
But I choose to admit to my mistakes
From which I've learnt to heighten the stakes,
Not to lower my own person and self
And keep at bay those who are not well
To the problem,
My eyes have been opened
It does not rest with me
But with others' immaturity
To my own ground, I will now stand
And not give way into others' hands
My choice is mine and mine alone
The decisions I make are stable to the bone
This time that I foresee
Will be alone but I'll be free
From those who will bring pain
I swear I will not remain
My time has come and now I know
I'm much more special than those for show
I have come to see the light
A much brighter future creeps into sight
My lessons have been learnt
Though harshly and through toil
But I know that to be burnt
Is the only way, to keep away
From flames that twist and coil
A higher level of maturity
Is what was missing from this history
I now know to stay away
From those who wish to remain
In their pain and lie their days away
Things I take personally
Were not meant that way, I see
Prejudice will only instil in you shallow gain
Friends that I thought were mine
When all we did was swim in wine
Common ground I did not find
They tried to sway me into highs
Patience please, the time will come
When I will find my special one
Until then I will learn to stay
In my own skin, some comfort will give way
My choice is now simple and true
Bring history into present; let it linger through
But I choose to admit to my mistakes
From which I've learnt to heighten the stakes,
Not to lower my own person and self
And keep at bay those who are not well
To the problem,
My eyes have been opened
It does not rest with me
But with others' immaturity
To my own ground, I will now stand
And not give way into others' hands
My choice is mine and mine alone
The decisions I make are stable to the bone
This time that I foresee
Will be alone but I'll be free
From those who will bring pain
I swear I will not remain
My time has come and now I know
I'm much more special than those for show
posted by Nadia Dossa at 2:51 PM
3 Comments:
23H20 - 5 Nov 06 (I keep forgetting to do what I asked you to do :) - lol)
What a wonderful way to answer my question :) - I'm much more excited about what this poem stands for rather than the poem itself (if that makes any sense). Sounds like you're at (or coming close to) crossroads with some decisions to make.
What's amazing as I read this is that it feels as though the decision of what to do and where to go is fairly easy - but the execution of the decision is what you may be finding hard - dunno if that's right though, that's just how i'm reading the poem.
The other thing that I enjoyed about this is the kind of "look back" vs. "how do I go forward" sensation the poem gives. The "bring history into present" is probably something that we all do at some stage of our lives - well, at least I think that we should do this otherwise we don't grow. I can't remember who said this but someone clever did: A life unexamined is a life not worth living (or something to that effect). See, what I think is fascinating about that is that the therapy that u going through I thought was more focused on providing you with tools in terms of moving forward with your life and not necessarily doing the classical therapy of "looking back at your childhood" kinda stuff. So it's interesting to see that, despite that, you're still finding a lot of growth by looking back, admiting [and learning] from your mistakes (as you put it) and then deciding on the appropriate way of moving forward. FANTABULOUS.
This is not a hugely glowingly positive poem, but it's highly realistic, and for that ... i'm going to read it again!
PS: How often do you come back and read your own stuff - does it move you as much as it seems to move other people when ur not feeling great?
Yeah this poem is about clarification about the whole issue. How I've come to realise where the source of the problem really was. I wrote this afer a counselling session with my psychologist. And he said that it was basically immature dudes, that's what it was about. Because I couldn't make sense of it all at first, wondering how someone could behave in that way.
Then it made a little bit of sense. The poem was about making me feel better about myself also. Like you said, it's about looking back at what happened and analysing it and learning from it. And then making the decision to move forward and stop letting it into my present. So it's kinda like a conclusion to the whole thing.
But like you said, easier to make the decision that to carry it through. But I'm trying..
You should have done english coz of the way you analyse poems :) I'm thinking of doing english major..
You should do English Major. I think you''d be brilliant at it. you know, when i was in High school I never achieved more than a C for English. However, if I did it now (or if I did it then, with the stability in life that I have now) i would definitely get an A - sounds a bit arrogant, but probably true.
The point though is that, sometimes you don't do what you can do to the best of your ability because of other stuff that's happening in your life and the instability that it brings with it. This is why I think that you're actually pretty brilliant at most things (e.g. maths, remember our discussion?), but you haven't managed to display those abilities because of external factors happening TO your life and affecting your person, your self, and obviously - your ability to perform.
So my point? You'd probably be pretty damn good at most things that you put your mind, because you have the aptitude for it (I think so at least) - so don't be surprised that, as stability slowly finds its way into your life, that you begin excelling at a number of different stuff that you're busy with :)
[Isn't fun to a big brother:)]
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