Last goodbye

So many days when I could forget
But too soon you came, I did what I regret
Where do I go now, my head is fucked
What do I do? When you're gone, I'm in a rut
Told myself, don't give yourself away
Not strong enough, my body couldn't wait

You came over to say goodbye
I held back some tears I couldn't cry
You held me in your arms
Even that was wrong
Why couldn't I say no
Why couldn't I let go
Why the fuck didn't I know
That I would die when you go
I don't know how to survive
Don't want to say goodbye

Straight after I knew we shouldn't have
But now it's too late we can't take it back
Intuitioned should never be ignored
If we could start again, I'd listen some more

You came over to say goodbye
I held back some tears I couldn't cry
You held me in your arms
Even that was wrong
Why couldn't I say no
Why couldn't I let go
Why the fuck didn't I know
That I would die when you go
I don't know how to survive
Don't want to say goodbye

I'm dreading the day, I can't sleep
My heart will bleed, die inside, it will keep
Better best forgotten sad memories
Risky thoughts will lead, back to my disease

Too soon,
You came too soon
Now it's the end,
It's brought me to my doom